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Will Smith details his ‘raging jealousy’ toward Tupac Shakur, desire for a HAREM in tell-all memoir


Will Smith has admitted to a ‘raging jealousy’ towards Tupac Shakur over the late rapper’s close friendship with his wife Jada Pinkett Smith, and detailed the tumult of his marriage and his ‘insatiable obsession’ for filling the emotional holes in his life with success and material wealth.

In his new memoir, the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air star writes that he wanted Jada to look at him the way she did Tupac because he was more manly.

Smith writes that he felt it a ‘twisted kind of victory’ when Jada chose to marry him in 1997 and couldn’t even speak to Tupac when they were in the same room.

In the book, Smith reveals that he and Jada nearly broke up after he planned an elaborate 40th birthday plan for her which completely backfired.

She screamed at him that it was ‘the most disgusting display of ego I have ever seen in my life’ and designed to please him instead of her.

Will Smith (right) has admitted to a ‘raging jealousy’ towards Tupac Shakur over the late rapper’s close friendship with his wife Jada Pinkett Smith (left), and detailed the tumult of his marriage and his ‘insatiable obsession’ for filling the emotional holes in his life with success and material wealth

'Will,' out now on Penguin Press, delves deep into Smith’s issues and his relationship with his tough love father who shaped Smith’s relentless drive to success

‘Will,’ out now on Penguin Press, delves deep into Smith’s issues and his relationship with his tough love father who shaped Smith’s relentless drive to success

‘Will’ reveals how Tupac Shakur (left) and Jada had been close for years, having met at Baltimore School for the Arts when they were teenagers

‘Will’ reveals how Tupac Shakur (left) and Jada had been close for years, having met at Baltimore School for the Arts when they were teenagers

Smith describes how in around 2010 his whole family carried out a ‘mutiny’ against him because he was ‘obsessed with winning’ and embarked on a spiritual journey to become a better father.

During conversations with his therapist, Smith said he wanted a ‘harem’ of 25 women, including Halle Berry, but realized the reality would be a ‘hellscape.’

‘Will’, written by the Academy Award-nominated actor, is a deeply personal account of Smith’s upbringing, two marriages and career which have seen him star in hits like Independence Day and Ali.

The book, out now on Penguin Press, delves deep into Smith’s issues and his relationship with his tough love father who shaped Smith’s relentless drive to success.

‘Will’ reveals how Tupac and Jada had been close for years, having met at the Baltimore School for the Arts when they were teenagers.

Smith, 53, writes that they were ‘best friends’ and were ‘two young dreamers’ fighting to get away from their abusive and troubled upbringings.

The pair were never intimate but Smith calls their love ‘legendary.’

Smith writes that Jada and Tupac were ‘best friends’ and were ‘two young dreamers’ fighting to get away from their abusive and troubled upbringings

Smith writes that Jada and Tupac were ‘best friends’ and were ‘two young dreamers’ fighting to get away from their abusive and troubled upbringings

Smith was ‘tortured by their connection’ because Tupac had a ‘fearless passion’ and triggered Smith’s perception of himself as a coward for not standing up to his father’s abuse.

Smith writes: ‘I hated that I wasn’t what he was in the world, and I suffered a raging jealousy. I wanted Jada to look at me like that.’

Smith admits he felt ‘a twisted kind of victory’ when Jada began to spend more time with him.

He writes: ‘Jada was the paragon, the pinnacle, the queen of queens. If she chose me over Tupac there was no way I could be a coward. I have rarely felt more vindicated.’

Smith writes that he ‘never spoke’ to Tupac even though he was in a room with him on ‘multiple occasions’ before the rapper was killed in a drive-by shooting in 1996.

He writes: ‘The way Jada loved ‘Pac rendered me incapable of being friends with him. I was too immature.’

Smith was ‘tortured by their connection’ because Tupac (pictured) had a ‘fearless passion’ and triggered Smith’s perception of himself as a coward for not standing up to his father’s abuse

Smith was ‘tortured by their connection’ because Tupac (pictured) had a ‘fearless passion’ and triggered Smith’s perception of himself as a coward for not standing up to his father’s abuse

In ‘Will’, Smith reveals that by the mid-2000s he had become one of the biggest stars on the planet but his marriage to Jada was crumbling.

Rather than having conversations for hours each day as they used to, ‘something was shifting’ with Jada and she was having ‘almost daily crying spells.’

The ‘mutiny’ took place after their daughter Willow became sick of her father trying to push her to do more shows during her fledgling career as a musician.

Willow told her parents: ‘Daddy has a picture of a family in his mind. And it’s not us!’

Smith admits that ‘everybody around me was miserable’ so he tried to put on a huge show for Jada’s 40th birthday in 2011.

Over a three-day weekend, Smith took over an entire hotel in Santa Fe, New Mexico and invited dozens of their family and friends.

He got Jada’s favorite painters to come and do a private art show and he planned a huge dinner in her honor.

Afterwards the 40 guests were taken to a theater where they saw a documentary Smith had commissioned about Jada’s family history.

At the end, the screen rose to reveal Mary J. Blige, a friend of the couple, who had agreed to perform.

Afterwards the 40 guests were taken to a theater where they saw a documentary Smith had commissioned about Jada’s (right) family history. At the end the screen rose to reveal Mary J. Blige (left), a friend of the Smiths, who had agreed to perform

Afterwards the 40 guests were taken to a theater where they saw a documentary Smith had commissioned about Jada’s (right) family history. At the end the screen rose to reveal Mary J. Blige (left), a friend of the Smiths, who had agreed to perform

Smith writes that Jada said little that evening until they got back to their hotel suite, when she exploded with rage.

Jada said: ‘That was the most disgusting display of ego I have ever seen in my life.’

Smith responded: ‘Ego? Ego? You are the most ungrateful. I ain’t ever doing s*** for you again.’

They were arguing so intensely they forgot that Willow was in the room next door and she came out telling them to ‘just stop, please!’

Smith writes that ‘our marriage wasn’t working. We could no longer pretend. We were both miserable.’

Smith writes that ‘our marriage wasn’t working. We could no longer pretend. We were both miserable'

Smith writes that ‘our marriage wasn’t working. We could no longer pretend. We were both miserable’

According to ‘Will’, Smith told his wife: ‘I retire from trying to make you happy. You are free. You need to go make yourself happy and prove to me it’s even possible. But I quit – you go do you, and I’m a go do me.’

The moment was the ‘burning away of the idealistic illusion of the perfect marriage and the perfect family’ and the beginning of a period of separation – but not a formal divorce.

The couple officially separated in 2015 and Jada would go on to have an affair with rapper Alsina August, who was nearly half her age, that year. 

Jada, now 50, originally called it an ‘entanglement’ before admitting they were seeing each other.

Jada would go on to have an affair with rapper Alsina August (pictured) who, at 27, is nearly half her age - she is 50 now - which was a relationship that Smith did not consent to

Jada would go on to have an affair with rapper Alsina August (pictured) who, at 27, is nearly half her age – she is 50 now – which was a relationship that Smith did not consent to

Smith has admitted to having extramarital affairs as well and has said that their marriage couldn’t be a ‘prison.’

The couple have said during their frank TV series Red Table Talk that they call each other ‘life partners’ to refer to their unique arrangement.

During their separation, Smith embarked on a journey to understand himself better including a 14 day silent retreat at his home in Utah.

The couple have said during their frank TV series Red Table Talk that they call each other ‘life partners’ to refer to their unique arrangement

The couple have said during their frank TV series Red Table Talk that they call each other ‘life partners’ to refer to their unique arrangement

Smith drank the psychedelic plant based drug Ayahuasca over 12 times during a retreat in Peru to understand his inner demons and had terrifying visions of a ‘mother’ like character who told him to quiet the chatter in his mind.

He underwent sessions with celebrity therapist Michaela Boehm who posed the question of what his life would be like if he ‘didn’t give a f***.’

Smith replied that he would have a ‘harem’ of 25 women including Halle Berry and the ballerina Misty Copeland.

According to ‘Will’, Boehm pointed out that ‘harems are not just for sex, harems are convened for inspiration’ and that they need ‘brilliant and powerful women’ who need constant attention.

Two days later, Smith realized that he just wanted so many women around because he would ‘be able to find one of them who liked me.’

Boehm told him: ‘As long as you do things for the approval of women, you will never be free.’

Smith writes that he realized that for decades he had ‘conflated being successful with being loved and being happy.’

He was trying to fill an ‘internal emotional hole with external, material achievements’ but it was an ‘insatiable obsession.’

Smith replied that he would have a ‘harem’ of 25 women including Halle Berry (pictured here with Smith)

Will Smith & Halle Berry during The 74th Annual Academy Awards Nominees Luncheon at Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills, California

Smith replied that he would have a ‘harem’ of 25 women including Halle Berry (pictured here with Smith during the 74th Annual Academy Awards Nominees Luncheon at the Beverly Hilton Hotel in Beverly Hills, California)

Ballerina Misty Copeland, pictured, would also be included in Will Smith's theoretical harem

Ballerina Misty Copeland, pictured, would also be included in Will Smith’s theoretical harem

He underwent sessions with celebrity therapist Michaela Boehm (pictured) who posed the question of what his life would be like if he ‘didn’t give a f***'

He underwent sessions with celebrity therapist Michaela Boehm (pictured) who posed the question of what his life would be like if he ‘didn’t give a f***’

The cracks in Smith and Jada’s marriage had begun to form with Willow’s arrival in 2000, Smith writes in the book.

Up until that point the ‘fragile equilibrium’ of having one son from a previous marriage and one from his second had survived.

But the arrival of Willow had ‘tipped the scales of our precariously blended family’ and his ‘family’s fragile wax began to soften.’

Smith admits to becoming an ‘insane, overbearing father’ after his children got into show business. His son Jaden, now 23, has starred in films such as the Karate Kid reboot in 2010 and last year’s Netflix hit Life in a Year.

Smith admits to becoming an ‘insane, overbearing father’ after his son Jaden Smith (right), who became an actor, and Willow Smith (left) became a performing artist

Smith admits to becoming an ‘insane, overbearing father’ after his son Jaden Smith (right), who became an actor, and Willow Smith (left) became a performing artist

Smith, who gained fame as a young rapper before going into showbiz, and Jada had gotten together as his first marriage to Sheree Zampino was crumbling in the mid-1990s.

In the book, Smith recounts a bitter fight with Zampino because she short-changed his barber by $600.

Smith told her that he ‘broke my word’ because he promised the barber $1,000, to which Zampino said: ‘I am not your errand girl.’

Smith screamed down the phone at her: ‘You know what – maybe one day you’ll be worth something’.

Smith writes: ‘If God were to give me back one sentence from my entire life, to erase it…it would be those seven words.’

Smith and Jada had gotten together as his first marriage to Sheree Zampino (pictured right) was crumbling in the mid-1990s

Smith and Jada had gotten together as his first marriage to Sheree Zampino (pictured right) was crumbling in the mid-1990s

While Smith does not admit to cheating on Zampino with Jada, he writes in vivid terms of their attraction while he was still married.

Smith writes: ‘It was like we went away to a private place alone… hours passed like minutes. I could sense the potential potency of our combined energies.

‘Her body was so tiny, but her spirit was so strong.’

When Zampino filed for divorce Smith sought guidance from Quincy Jones (pictured), the music producer who had given him his breakout role on The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air

When Zampino filed for divorce Smith sought guidance from Quincy Jones (pictured), the music producer who had given him his breakout role on The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air

When Zampino filed for divorce, Smith sought guidance from Quincy Jones, the music producer who had given him his breakout role on The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air.

Jones, who had been divorced three times, gave Smith some strikingly frank advice.

He said: ‘As soon as somebody acts like they don’t want to be with me, they can take half my shit and let the doorknob hit ‘em.’

Jones brought his voice down low like Morpheus in The Matrix, ‘making sure i could handle the red pill’, Smith writes.

Jones said: ‘‘Give that woman half, tell her you’ll see her at Christmas Eve and move on with your life. You gonna make all that money back next year anyway. Just write the damn check and move on.’

Five days after getting the divorce papers, Smith called Jada and told her, ‘You’re going out with me now.’



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