Pregnant Malin Anderson opened up about the grief she’s enduring during her second pregnancy in a moving Instagram post on Sunday.
The former Love Island star, 28, is expecting a girl with boyfriend Jared, after her first child, Consy, tragically passed away at four weeks old in 2019.
The reality personality shared a picture of her baby bump wrapped in a sheer white sheet as she revealed the pain she’s suffering due to the loss of her first child.
Mixed emotions: Pregnant Malin Anderson, 28, opened up about the grief she’s enduring during her second pregnancy in a moving Instagram post on Sunday
She wrote: ‘As she closes her eyes & takes a deep breath.. memories and thoughts come flooding through her head.
‘This pregnancy should make you happy they said, you should be grateful.. look to the future and smile instead.
‘But it doesn’t always work out like that; grief comes creeping out.. keeping you trapped.
‘Triggers and healing, just a few of the emotions she’s been feeling. Stuck her in head, doubt and fear.. worrying about her new little girl, oh she’s holding back a tear.
The former Love Island star is expecting a girl with boyfriend Jared, after her first child, Consy, tragically passed away at four weeks old in 2019, said she’s suffering painful memories
‘She didn’t realise having her rainbow baby would trigger this pain, but she knows this is normal and to not feel ashamed..
‘She isn’t her mind, nor her past.. these negative feelings too shall pass.
‘As she opens her eyes again, facing reality.. she knew that this pregnancy would come with its challenges.
‘And with that she takes a step forward, counting her blessings and remaining present.
Heartfelt words: The television personality penned a poem to share with her Instagram followers about her experience
‘She knows deep down not to worry; she’s got this far.
‘Her strength will always carry her through..
‘And for you my darling, yours can too. – Ma.’
Malin revealed she was expecting a baby earlier this month when she a snap of her baby bump, with her hands and her boyfriend Jared’s hands resting on it.
Speaking out: Malin recently explained how she was living through domestic abuse at the hands of her ex Tom Kemp when she was pregnant for the first time
Her first daughter Consy was born seven weeks premature in December 2018 and was treated at Great Ormond Street Hospital in London, but sadly passed away aged four weeks on 22 January 2019.
Since then Malin has struggled with further strife, reportedly left terrified after her violent ex recently broke his license conditions, meaning he has been sent back to prison.
Tom Kemp, 28, was jailed at Aylesbury Crown Court in September after admitting to actual bodily harm, which left the reality star ‘black and blue’ but was released just months later in January.
Tragic: Her daughter Consy was born seven weeks premature in December 2018 and was treated at London’s Great Ormond Street hospital, but sadly passed away on 22 January 2019
Malin recently explained on Instagram how she was living through domestic abuse at the hands Tom when she was pregnant with Consy.
She wrote: ‘It isn’t until you are amongst peace that you realise what your life used to be like.
‘Sometimes my life right now feels too good to be true. I don’t like delving into my past unless it’s to make a point & help you all to understand transition and strength – and this time I would like to compare how different my pregnancies are.
‘Firstly, I have never been with anyone so loving and attentive.. that makes my soul shine and brings out only the best in me.
Candid: The influencer encouraged any of her followers who may be experiencing domestic abuse to seek help
‘I know this sounds so cringe as I write it – but when something so pure lands into your life, it almost feels alien if you’ve never experienced it before.
‘My pregnancy so far has been stress free, calm and peaceful.. and a lot of that is down to me having a loving and stable relationship. One that has great communication and understanding – and most of all patience.
‘I look back 3 years ago to when I was pregnant with Consy, and how volatile my relationship was then; and how I would wake up each day with severe anxiety, panic attacks and stress.
‘With every argument and attack would come the tensing of my stomach and the knowing that my little girl could feel all the pain I felt too.
Awful: Malin previously accused her ‘narcissist’ ex Tom of being abusive in Instagram posts in 2019 and shared pictures of herself with a cut cheek and bloodied nose
‘It saddens me to think that I thought that was ‘love’ – and it breaks my heart knowing I let myself endure the emotional and physical pain whilst carrying something so precious – but this is what you call domestic abuse.’
She wrote: ‘Domestic abuse does not discriminate. If you are pregnant it can actually get worse.
‘Domestic abuse during pregnancy puts a pregnant woman and her unborn child in danger. It increases the risk of miscarriage, infection, premature birth, low birth weight, foetal injury and foetal death.
‘If you are pregnant and being abused, there is help. Your abusive partner is not only potentially endangering your life, but also the life of your unborn baby.
‘With this, I am sending you all so much love. The transition my life has endured has been surreal – I never thought I would make it through the heartache and agony.
‘But I’m here. I’m thriving. I’m smiling. And I’ve survived it.’
Scary: The former Love Islander has struggled with strife, reportedly left terrified after her violent ex Tom recently broke his license conditions, meaning he has been sent back to prison (pictured together in 2019)