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Iskra Lawrence opens up about missing ‘the old me’ while sharing throwback snaps


Model Iskra Lawrence is opening up about her early days as a model, saying that she misses, ‘the old me.’

The 30-year-old model shared a number of black-and-white snaps of her in a bikini top and black pants, which were taken by Matthew Comer.

She also spoke about the pressure of being not only a model, but of being a role model while contemplating the pressure of her online personality.

Opening up: Model Iskra Lawrence is opening up about her early days as a model, saying that she misses, ‘the old me’

Throwback: The 30-year-old model shared a number of black-and-white snaps of her in a bikini top and black pants, which were taken by Matthew Comer

Throwback: The 30-year-old model shared a number of black-and-white snaps of her in a bikini top and black pants, which were taken by Matthew Comer

Pressure: She also spoke about the pressure of being not only a model, but of being a role model while contemplating the pressure of her online personality

Pressure: She also spoke about the pressure of being not only a model, but of being a role model while contemplating the pressure of her online personality

‘Sometimes I miss the old me. Sometimes I miss how comfortable in my sexuality I was,’ Lawrence began. 

‘How unashamed I was of nudity and posing provocatively but in an unforced natural way,’ the supermodel added.

‘I shut myself off from a lot of things when I grew a platform, started to feel the pressure of people holding me to a “role model” standard and expecting me to be the perfect polite well rehearsed human,’ she said. 

Old me: 'Sometimes I miss the old me. Sometimes I miss how comfortable in my sexuality I was,' Lawrence began

Old me: ‘Sometimes I miss the old me. Sometimes I miss how comfortable in my sexuality I was,’ Lawrence began

Shut off: 'I shut myself off from a lot of things when I grew a platform, started to feel the pressure of people holding me to a “role model” standard and expecting me to be the perfect polite well rehearsed human,' she said

Shut off: ‘I shut myself off from a lot of things when I grew a platform, started to feel the pressure of people holding me to a “role model” standard and expecting me to be the perfect polite well rehearsed human,’ she said

Lawrence also reflected on a ‘gig’ she took for rapper Cardi B, revealing she told her husband Philip Payne, ‘I don’t even feel comfortable twerkin in public letting “loose” I feel the eyes on me even when they’re not.’

She added she didn’t want to ‘let people down’ and ‘be a bad role model’ or a ‘bad influence’ to others.

‘I felt like sharing this with you today because I needed to get it off my chest and I’d love to know if anyone feels this way that the pressure of an online personality made them shrink or deny parts of themselves?’ she said frankly.

Reflecting: Lawrence also reflected on a 'gig' she took for rapper Cardi B, revealing she told her husband Philip Payne, 'I don’t even feel comfortable twerkin in public letting “loose” I feel the eyes on me even when they’re not'

Reflecting: Lawrence also reflected on a ‘gig’ she took for rapper Cardi B, revealing she told her husband Philip Payne, ‘I don’t even feel comfortable twerkin in public letting “loose” I feel the eyes on me even when they’re not’

Bad influence: She added she didn't want to 'let people down' and 'be a bad role model' or a 'bad influence' to others

Bad influence: She added she didn’t want to ‘let people down’ and ‘be a bad role model’ or a ‘bad influence’ to others

Regardless of what industry you’re in there’s certain standards I think we all feel like we have to adhere to to be socially acceptable online – how do you feel about that?’ she asked.

‘Because I’m really trying to re find all these lost parts of me,’ she said, adding, ‘I miss shooting with you @matthewcomer.’

Lawrence has been reflecting a lot lately, revealing in May on Josh Smith’s Make It Reign, The Podcast an incident where she was harassed at a nightclub.

Standards: Regardless of what industry you’re in there’s certain standards I think we all feel like we have to adhere to to be socially acceptable online - how do you feel about that?' she asked

Standards: Regardless of what industry you’re in there’s certain standards I think we all feel like we have to adhere to to be socially acceptable online – how do you feel about that?’ she asked

Lost parts: 'Because I’m really trying to re find all these lost parts of me,' she said, adding, 'I miss shooting with you @matthewcomer'

Lost parts: ‘Because I’m really trying to re find all these lost parts of me,’ she said, adding, ‘I miss shooting with you @matthewcomer’

”One time when I was at a nightclub, I was at the bar and I saw this guy behind me and as I reached over to pay, he put his hand down my top and I wasn’t wearing a bra,’ she said.

She also spoke about a time where she was approached by a gentleman who she thought was going to ask her for money, but he spit in her face instead.

‘There was a gentleman this one time, where I thought, he was going to ask me for money and as I was trying to find my money in my purse, he literally came up close enough, almost as if he was about to kiss me and then spat in my face – that was super uncomfortable,’ she said.

Nightclub: ''One time when I was at a nightclub, I was at the bar and I saw this guy behind me and as I reached over to pay, he put his hand down my top and I wasn't wearing a bra,' she said

Nightclub: ”One time when I was at a nightclub, I was at the bar and I saw this guy behind me and as I reached over to pay, he put his hand down my top and I wasn’t wearing a bra,’ she said

Spit: She also spoke about a time where she was approached by a gentleman who she thought was going to ask her for money, but he spit in her face instead

Spit: She also spoke about a time where she was approached by a gentleman who she thought was going to ask her for money, but he spit in her face instead



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